As I’ve navigated through the journey of supporting my loved one who struggles with their mental health, there was one realization I had that impacted me the most…and it still does. Grieving.
It sounds a little odd – no one has passed away…so why would I grieve? For a long time, I would look at social media and see how my old friends were doing – the house, the kids, the family pictures….and I would get angry, or just sad. I held on for a long time to the ideal life I had dreamt about, but would no longer have, thanks to this new journey of navigating mental illness alongside my partner. I had to grieve the loss of that life I would no longer have due to the circumstances around his struggles.
There is no one right way to grieve. Grief is a very personal emotion, and we have to understand that there are no timelines and no instructions, so it’s okay to navigate the way that you feel is best.
We often look to the Five Stages of Grief, a model that was introduced by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, a Swiss-American psychiatrist for those grieving the loss of a loved one, but can be applied to many experiences people deal with. I’m going to apply it to the grief I’ve mentioned above – an adjustment to a life with someone dealing with mental health struggles.
What are the Stages?
Denial: allows for the information or news to slowly be absorbed, or for you to adjust to it. It can also be seen as a defence mechanism. “This is just a temporary phase/issue.”
Anger: as we begin to let our emotions out and adjust to a new way of living, we often redirect it at people or even our loved one. “I’m so tired of dealing with their moods! Why can’t they just be normal? Why can’t they just be happy for one day?”
Bargaining: Because we want to cushion the blow of this new reality, we are often desperate to change it and so we cry out! “Maybe if I pray enough, God will cure my loved one and everything will be fine again.”
Depression: Our new reality starts to sink in, and we see how our life has changed and won’t be the same. “I’m sad that my life won’t look the way I had thought it would.”
Acceptance: This doesn’t mean that life is totally normal, and we won’t have bad days, but it does mean that we can accept that there is a new reality and start to move forward.
These stages might not all be done in this order. You may accept this new reality and be okay, and then have a day where you are angry or sad. And that’s OKAY!
So What Do We Do?
Reach out. Talk. The worst thing I ever did was hide. The first time we experienced a crisis, I denied it was even happening. I pretended things were okay and just made it into a joke, obviously a defense mechanism (I tend to do this often). I avoided people, and even my church community. Don’t isolate. Reach out to a support network, a peer support group or even your faith community.
Write about it. Journal your thoughts down and don’t hold back on how you feel. If you are at that angry stage – I say, let ‘er rip! It feels good to write out how we feel. When it bottles up, it comes out…and it will usually come out onto an unsuspecting person. I was really angry for a long time and I did take it out on people, whether on my poor husband or even a stranger.
Make A Plan. Find out what triggers your sadness or your anger. Is it the social media accounts you follow? Unfollow them. Is it a friend who is just not sensitive to what you are going through? Sometimes there are well meaning people, but when they start to bombard you with only advice or questions that make you feel overwhelmed, it’s okay not to confide in those people at the moment. Know who your advocates are so that as you work through these stages, you can find comfort and feel supported.
There are many people who struggle with their mental health and adjust to a new way of life successfully. For others, it goes in ebbs and flows. And for some..it can feel like an uphill battle every single day. Whatever journey you are on, whatever stage you might be working through, there is one comfort in knowing that you aren’t alone. In this community – reach out and ask for help.
Braver Together 
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